pics for today

well,the weather was gr8 today...n so i went on clickin...whatever struck me....n here they are.......

an amalgam of wat u see

tagged by cherubic_chipmunk

well,i forgot to mention...but the post "15thFEB"..was my 50th post...yipee,managed to score half a century,eventhough i dn't see much of cricket...n here with this 51st,i'm on the verge of doin smthin tht i barely do....dreamin bout my lover boy....i had many crushes...had many heart breaks... unintentionally and accidentally,fooled by the good looks n intelligence,but of tht of a married man or gays....
people can fool u so easily cos of their mannerisms n nature. ....but frankly speakin...all of them have merely been nthin but an infatuation....n tht's all i have dreamt of so far...but gettin into a relationship...nops...definately not....

it isn't bcos i have some committment phobia....nops,tht's isn't the reason..infact i can only rely on my relationship on the basis of three factors...1)givin space..2)honesty..3)fidelity...

but the reason tht i stay away from fallin into a relationship is only bcos of one reason...being devoid of one of the factors tht a relationship should be based on, according to me...which has been jotted down above...
i just cannot compromise with my space...my freedom of choice n thought....my freedom to do things whenever i want to...liberty to do wat i want to....
i hate phone calls too..n gettin into relationship also means a series of calls..."dn't they have anythin to do or anythin new to say"...n tht too 24/7....oh god
n another thing...fallin into a relationship also means gettin entangled into plethora of problems...for instance..the question hr session...n u have no choice but to answer them,cos u have been foisted by smthin called love n relationship by ur partner....well,tht's the only reason,y i stay away frm it....

anyhow,i dn't wanna break my frnd's heart,who has so lovingly tagged me,not knowin tht i hate working on tags...
but anyhow...

CHERUBIC_CHIPMUNK....THIS IS FOR U...N U OWE ME ONE FOR THIS...COS I HAD TO GO THROUGH A LOT OF MENTAL TORTURE WRITTIN BOUT SMTHIN THT I DN'T EVEN DREAM OF...
8 points tht i wud want in my dream guy...

uff...i cn't believe i'm doin this..................
:------
1)looks are not all tht important if compared to someone intelligent....but a charming guy(not neccesarily handsome)....with a gr8 brain..wud be a miracle

2)i like alpha guys.....i know dn't they care much bout themselves...but cud they pay a lil attention to thier hands n feet.....n see tht their mouth dn't stink....
[reminds me of this line from a sonnet written by shakesspeare tht i recently read in the book by huxley....]

"AND IN SOME PERFUMES IS THERE MORE DELIGHT,
THAN IN THE BREADTH THAT FROM MY MISTRESS REEKS"...

ofc,it's not the MISTRESS tht i'm talkin bout...

3)his love for books,music n movies(any kind of films:not just hindi n english)

4)i dn't want to force him to stay with me or tell him to take time out for me from his busy schedule,cos i know i'll land in tht time trap too...but he n i should make sure...tht dinner should be done together,n a lil walk....
n some arguments should be there too,else life wud be so borin....if there r no fights,arguments,n debates....

5)i dn't mind if my guy drinks..but occassionaly...i dn't want an alcoholic...n a dope-head...wud be a complete "no-no"....no drugs...drinkin n smokin to a limit,but shudn't be an addict...

6)if he has problems with women,not bocs of me,but due to some reasons,then he shudn't make me the ginnie-pig....cos my thinkin n perceptions arn't similar to any woman walkin on the street or sleepin in the house or workin in ur office....but yes,i demand respect n i hate comparisons....
[i know tht was quite mean of me to say tht]

7)i wud definately want my man to be fit.....i love abs...not too much of it...but it shud be worth being fit...n metally too....i mean,he shudn't be stressed out n tensed....shud have a gr8 sense of humour...n shud remain haapy n cheerful,cos most of the time i'm the opposite,so i need someone to keep a chk on me....hahahha.....
i hate to be pampered,but i dn't mind if someone shows me a way to remain happy....wat say?

8)well,i believe i shud leave the last point,only bcos...it might get censored...
hahahaha
jst kiddin...
all i want to say is,tht my man shud love me a lot,care for me n have an understanding...a mutual understanding...

cos....................
i wud do the same for him too....

well,jst bcos i keep myself away from gettin into anyrelationship dsn't mean tht all the above 8 points are untrue...
cos if i'm on a hunt...i'll be keepin these 8 points in my headwith whom i wud spend my whole life with...but ofc...tht's long way to go...but at present,i ain't lookin for any.... so spare me from any further tags...

8 ppl who r tagged by me......
1)dyer maker
2)rohit
3)man in the box
4)ms
5)xfreakx
6)mr.mediocre
7)amod
8)poison

TODAY....

well,today i took an off frm the internship...
not bcos i cudn't get up....
but i jst didn't feel like

but frankly speakin,i almost wasted all of my day doin nthin,besides few things..

i cleaned up the mess tht was pillin up in my house for the last few days...i cudn't sort it out before cos of the internship..

read a bit n watched Lawrence of Arabia,another time...
oh i love tht film...esp the first scene...with lawrence on the motorbike n racin up n more, till he met his End..

done with movie,n the taunts began...
no..no..no...
it wasn't anyone tauntin me,but me who was cursin myself...chiddin myself only bcos i feel i'm bloatin,n tht freaked me out...so,today,i'm gonna start with my routine workouts tht i had, unintentionally left due to xams n the present internship....

it's 7 in the eve....i'm gonna hit the treadmill,then push off for a shower...work on my project too..n then i might see another classic film.."kagaz ke phool",i havn't seen it before,n i'm dyin to see it, asap...
hopefully,i get to see it today...

oh..i forgot...i even had a 15 mins battle with the ants in my kitchen...no...it was 20 mins...

20 mins of killin those bastards with the newspaper...oh,i so much hate the ants..
they r nuts,n wud run for any friggin shit.....when i see then collectin over a place n the others runnin for it...they look nthin less than lil sly n desperate bastards,n when some human makes a sound or kills one or two ants,they all get so mad...uff

i hate ants.....i truly hate them,but i enjoy it whenevr the battle takes place...hahaha
it's not tht i'm merciless n same with all the small livin creatures...i'm only harsh with ants...n i guess i have already given the reasons above...

sry,if i have hurt some of those who are contradictin to wat i did,esp to those who r fond lover of ANTS....

I HATE THEM...THE ANTS....

hahahahahahahaha

ok...
th's it for today.....

heheheheheeheehahahahaahahah

curtains n my room....all red n some light

RADIO KILLS MY SLEEPING HRS

yeah...sure it does..

today was my first day at the All India Radio(AIR)...my first day of internship after working with the Hindustan Times in Chandigarh in june 2004....

n i must confess,it was quite a borin day...the first day..

i reached there around 11..n was waitin with an another guy called Feroze who was also an internee...

both of us kept waitin either for an assignment or someone to help us find one n go out for the coverage..

alas!!nothin happ,but by the end of it,we only got more n more bored..n i even ended up sleepin in between ...many times...
while the whole radio staff were busy watchin cricket..i was busy sleepin or listenin to music(Hail!!walkman...wat wud i do without u...??????)

n then there was this guy...quite a famous one amongst his colleagues...who was quite a gasbag...n wudn't get tired of talkin n commentin on others...he went on jabberin with us..n i got pretty pissed..
in between i had my lunch n tea with feroze....
talked with tht man(the gasbag)..

slept frequently with intervals...

4pm...another guy comes up to us..n tells us to accompony him to the Congress Office...to cover the press conference wich was addressed by Abhishek Sanghvi,spokeperson of Congress..

done with tht,another issue comes up wich was also to be covered by us with the help of tht sir...
it was an issue regardin Prophet Mohammad n the comical display on him wich offended the muslim religion...
there was protest regardin this issue in Jamia Milia Islamia...wich made quite a news today in Delhi too...
imagine...700-800 students for the rally...watercannon n lathi charge was imposed on them resultin in hospitalisn few...it was sad....

quite a disgustin thing for tht comic guy to do...wat was the need to depict God or Religion in this manner...God...Goddess...religion are not comic characters....if only tht guy realised wat he was upto when makin this comical error resultin in protests...religion shud also be respected..whether u believe in it or not..

anyways...this was all tht hap today on my first day....

nthin much though....
i was really bored n sleepy...until evenin came,n i was landed with 2 assignments..

hopefully,my tomorrow truns out to be better...

some more pictures

well,some of the pictures tht were taken in goa were left..so i though of postin thm too in the blog...all have been taken in goa durin our college trip in sep,2005....except for the first pic,wic has been taken by me in my previous p.g(payin guest)...tht's my own grafitti sketch..
the owner of tht place,an old man,got fuckin angry n told me to pay for the whitewashin of tht wall....but the walls nvr got renewed..n before it cud,i was thrown out for someother weird reasons...i'm sure some of u know bout it...i need not to tell again bout it..it's too irritatin..anyway,let's leave...wat's gone is gone...so i nvr got the chance to pay for my doin...guess,i have left a souveneir for tht oldie...i dn't like him for he harassed me a lot durin my stay in tht p.g.....

the second pic was taken with a car,not mine..it was parked n ruined..so i thought of gettin a pic taken with tht car...i found it pretty classy,n the color matched too with tht of my shirt...hahaha

the thrid one is again a pic,with me in it...at the vagador beach.....i love this pic...
isolated n happy.... with myself....

n the last one has been taken by me again...it's a pic of aguvara fort in goa....nice place...u even get to see the water behind...so clear n blue...i mean aqua blue...lol

tht's it with my goa's pic...
take care...n enjoy the season of spring....

tired n not a gr8 day at all

hardly slept for three hrs...
i was up by 9...

had a quick shower,but had no time for breakfast...
out of my place by 10.30...
travellin by metro...

ear phones plugged into my ears,n singin aloud the song by nirvana...."where did u sleep last night?"
suddenly i'm confronted by this man...with a grumpy look on his face..more than wat i had on mine...(all the credit to the loneliness phase tht i have been livin with..tht has kept me numb n dumb for days..)...
anyhow,so this man comes upto me(not very old),sayin smthin...
cudn't make out wat he was sayin,cos of the ear phones...n when i put it off..he ws like..."get up...i'm an old man n i wanna sit.."

ok..i wasn't in the mood to argue with him..so i got up...n travelled by standin,cos there was no place to sit...u see some indian men have no sense of etiquetes(sry for the spellin)...so i was helpless n it's pointless talkin bout it...

my mission to move out of the house early was to get my time slots for the internship with the radio...
so i was there on time...got the slots...though i had to wait for quite some time..

got the slots around 2...

my internship will be startin from 6th of feb till 26th.....i know..i know...no more sleepin the way i used to...
hahaha

then i went to the British Council for the research on the topic for my project.."the impact of documentary films n the social changes in india.."..but..sad...cudn't find any..but i did get the invitation by the Council to appear for the screenin of this particular doc film based on my topic...(not exactly based on it..but hopefully,it helps me)...

had to get back home...
so i travelled back by metro...and again,i had to travel by standin for an hr...
n i must say..i was tired...
was really tired...
no sleep(barely two-three hrs..no food,remember i didn't have breakfast..n lunch was no where to be seen while i busy with the time slots)...
in between,while travellin metro in the evenin, i had to stop by the Departmental store...had to buy some stuff for home...afterall,i stay by myself...so i have to shop too on my own...my parents live far off...i wish there were here to cook delicious food for me..i miss my mom's cookin n my dad pesterin me to have food,n my big bro..who wud join me..n we wud try n take a sip of beer frm dad's glass,without lettin him know...
those were good times...
good times..
:)

anyhow,so i got lots of stuff frm the Store...n boy,wat a weight to carry...
n my place is on the top floor...
it has no lift..n i had to climb those72 stair cases with tht weight...
n when i reached for my keys to unlock my house...the lock wudn't open...

half an hr passed...still strugglin with the lock...
5 mins more...no progress with the openin of the lock...

n suddnely,after 10 more mins,the lock opened...
n as i entered...i went straight to the room..n fell on my bed...n then i saw my right hand with wich i was strugglin with the lock....it was in a bad shape...to an extent tht it's makin it all the more impossible for me to jot down today for this blog....

had eggs for dinner with coffee...n was accompanied by Citizen Kane...
after the film,it was time for beethoven to give me company...ohh...i love tht score by him.."moonlight sonata"...
i jst love it...

n, now i'm here...the radio is on...this program is being telecasted with ppl and their problems with thier love life...
oh..god!!!another weight to carry,i guess...lol
thnkfully,i'm spared frm this one!!!!!!!

i guess after finishin with this post,i 'll read for sometime..n then sleep
have to get up early again....

gud night...
take care