at this point of time......

at this point of time....i sit with the first cigarette of today's, in my mouth...drink second cup of black tea,n watch "coffee n cigarette" for the 2nd time,while i wait for the whistle to blow to tell me tht the rice is done.....

i have been workin really hard for the last couple of weeks on this rock show tht my company,AIM Television,is working on...n my chinese thing is goin on fine as well....but after all this,all i wanted was a good sunday...let alone a good one...i cudn't even manage to get my long sleep..thnks to the door bell,n the phone calls,n later my maid servant knocks in to clean.....

there have been good news rinign in my ear,but it dsn't take more than a minute or two to let someone ruin ur mood with their abruptness and strange mannerisms and words towards u.....

today,i wanted to talk to someone.....i mean...a lil bit of being in touch with smthin tht is known as human being "touch"...u know like,stayin in touch n lots of words comin through the air,n smthin to laugh at....it's been a decade since i had a chance to do smthin like tht....cos when i cm home,i'm all by myself...no one around to talk to.....not tht i'm complainin....i'm very hpy stayin alone...nthin is btr than havin my privacy(no euphemism required,plez...lol).....

what i want is a laid back life for sometime,n relax...rather than go out for small excurssions,what we normally do with our friends like goin to the movies,have lavish lunch,chat over absolutely nthin imp over a cup of coffee or the most fav thing to do-shoppin....all of this is so materialistc,n it dsn't liaise with my point of seeing how i want to socialise.....sounds confusin....n maybe,a series of preposterous words comin out of me n on to this computer screen.......hahahaha

while i sit n watch this film,"coffee n cig",i sometime think,why isn't life jst like tht...not consumin the chemicals,but givin relevance to smthin small,which can be significant....coffee and cigs are smthin tht are so small in nature n so simple..there's no complication or confusin as to how to drink or make coffee or light a cig,yet ppl use them so lavishly...lavishly as in smthin u can rem too,n not forget to do it often.....funny,right...but it's true.....

i wish coversation or meetin someone would be as simple as drinkin ur coffee or smokin a cig.....

i wish someone could be there to talk about anythin from dyaln to the dutch,from games to guns.....

simple but memorable conversation,without expectin anythin big to happen......



the whistle blows,n i'm hungry......it's lunch time,n the movie finishes too.....

zaijian