Sunday, July 31, 2005

WANNA SLEEP???

HELLO…
I KNOW,I’VE BEEN QUITE LAZY TO WRITE DOWN ANYTHING FOR THE BLOG…
BUT TODAY I HAVE SOMETHING SERIOUS, AND A BIT HUMOUROUS, TO SHARE WITH U ALL.
LATELY,THERE’S THIS INSANITY THAT HAD COME OVER MY HEAD INORDER TO TRY OUT SOMETHING TO BREAK AWAY FROM THIS MONOTONOUS LIFE I WAS LEADING.CERTAIN RAMBUNCTIONS HAD MADE IT IMPOSSIBLE TO CAST OFF MY INHIBITIONS. THE TRUTH IS THAT THESE DAYS I HAVE BEEN QUITE DEPRESSED WITH THE KIND OF MY PROBLEMS’ PACING UP AND I’VE BEEN TOTALLY CLUELESS REGARDING ITS SOLUTION.SO,THIS INSANITY,THAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT,CAME ACROSS. FOR NOW,I THOUGHT OF TRYING OUT SOMETHING THAT EVERY SMUCK DOES WHEN HE/SHE SEES NO WAY OUT ESP WITH THEIR PROBLEMS…[I HOPE,TILL NOW U’VE UNDERSTOOD WHAT I’M TRYIN TO EMPHASISE ON.]
WELL,I WANTED TO TRY GETTING ‘HIGH’,I KNOW THAT’S THE MOST WACKIEST THING TO DO AND THAT’S THE REASON WHY I SAID EVERY SMUCK DOES IT. WHATEVER!!SO I GAVE A RING TO MY FRND AND EXPLAINED HIM,WITHOUT DISCLOSING MY PROBLEMS,TO HELP MYSELF WITH SOME DRUG WHICH WUD HELP ME GET HIGH.SO HE SUGGESTED ME A TONIC(SRY,CAN’T GIVE U THE NAME AS IT IS I DEFINATELY DN’T WANT ANY OF U TRY IT OUT AT UR HOME).SO WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO WAS TO HAVE HALF OF THAT BOTTLE ACCOMPANIED WITH A CUP OF COFFEE.
SO,HERE IT GOES….NOT HALF,BUT I DID HAVE THE WHOLE BOTTLE OF THAT TONIC,ALONG WITH A CUP OF BLACK COFFEE AND IN ADDITION TO THIS PROCESS,I EVEN ACQUAINTED IT WITH TWO FULL DRAGS OF CIGARETTES. WEEL,THE REPURCUSSION,NOT SURE OF THE SPELL(PUN INTENDED PLEZ,AS SPELL FOR SPELLINGS AND FOR THE MAGIC:: L O L),APPARENTLY,I GOT HIGH AS I WANTED BUT THEN CAME ALONG THE LONG HRS OF SNOOZING PROBLEM. EXACTLY AFTER 2 HRS OF THE WHOLE PROCEDURE OF GETTING HIGH,I SLEPT,FOR AROUND 10 HS.I GOT UP AT 7.30AM AND GOT DRESSED FOR THE COLLEGE.AS SOON AS I REACHED THE CLASS,I CRASHED FOR ANOTHER HR.THEN AFTER THAT I ACCOMPANIED MY FRNDS FOR LUNCH, AS IT IS WITHOUT ANY DINNER AND BREAKFAST,I WAS BOUND TO FEEL HUNGRY.AFTER SEEING OFF MY FRNDS,I WAITED FOR THE BUS THAT WOULD TAKE ME TO MY PLACE.AND GUESS WHAT!,I’M SLEEPING AGAIN,THAT TOO SOUNDLY IN THE BUS.I KEPT SLEEPING UNTIL THE CONDUCTOR WOKE ME UP WHEN MY STAND HAD COME.I WAS SO FUCKIN LOST IN MY SLEEP.
WHEN I REACHED MY PLACE,I THOUGHT OF HAVING A QUICK SHOWER TO DRIVE OFF THE SLEEP OFF ME,COS I WAS REALLY IN THE MOOD TO FINISH MY BOOK:CHEKHOV’S PLAYS.BUT….SLEEPING BEAUTY IS SLEEPING AGAIN,THAT TOO FOR 5HRS MORE.THEN I WAS UP,I WAS FINALLY UP(THAT’S WHAT I THOUGHT),BUT I WAS WRONG,THAT WASN’T THE END OF IT,I SLEPT AGAIN AFTER HAVIN SOME BISCUITS TO EAT,I GUESS THAT WAS THE REASON WHY I WAS UP. AND SINCE THEN I’VE BEEN SLEEPIN UNTIL TODAY AT 12 IN THE AFTERNOON. AND THEN,I WAS FINALLY UP. BOY….THAT WAS LONG.
AND HERE I AM,SITTING INFRONT OF MY COMP,WIDE AND AWAKE,TELLING U MY STORY REGARDING MY OVERSLEEPING PROBLEMS,AFTER LONG HRS OF SLEEP!!!!!

I AM….THE ‘GIRL,INTERRUPTED’

11 Comments:

Blogger Mirage said...

So that was what was making you so drowsy!! Nikaaaaaa!! You PROMISED!! Grrr! I cant believe u broke ur promise. I'm really annoyed now. REALLY annoyed. >:[

8:01 AM  
Blogger D'yer Mak'er said...

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12:09 AM  
Blogger D'yer Mak'er said...

Derpressions are only an assertion to those sacramental spaces though not void in form of life....no point of waitin for a miracle if you can't be that miracle.....i wonder how denial n' politeness can go together...for rambunction designates handrails...which are infact a linear extrapolation of life in composition....for you're never the only one when your one mode of function is steadfast deconstruction of attachments once forged with your inhibitions.

You may say I'm a dreamer,
but I'm not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

12:18 AM  
Blogger TripleSix said...

@starngers' inc
sacramental,well as far as i know,that it means,self-guiltyness,and thus u punish urself....if u've read my blog properly,then there are no confessions emphasisng on myself regarding as something that makes me feel that i'm gulty of,and neither am i punishin myself...its just that i wanted a lil time off that burden that was dominating my "inhibitions"...sometimes,there are some regretful nostalgic moments,which evokes a sense of eerieness in u.those memories then turn out to be acrimonial,and u wud only end up wishing that i never casted upon u so badly that the way its doin to u right now...these memories haunt,they chase u so badly,that it makes it even more unbearable and makes u unable to sleep soundily.i'm not the scapegoat,its the world around me that has,to some extent,made me so cold..that i can only help regain my consciouness by undergoing unconsciousness...sharin my moments hasn't helped me a bit
miracles...there are no miracles.had i believe in one,u think i wud try such a thing,neither am interested in being one...cos i believe that too much of something is bad..after all one is only a human being tryin his best to create a miracle,to get hold of his landmark,and make it perpetual for self-congratulatory reasons:call it greed:everybdy,wants to be immortal,but what about those who can't extricate.
"denial" and "politeness",well,it goes well,if i explain u one condition...if u into politics,u need to diplomatic...lol,got what i'm tryin to say,otherwise,i agree that its difficult to put denial and politeness as a function,cos it wud only be another synonym of duplicity...and i too,hate that trait in others.but i still can't get the reason y u talked of "denial" and "politeness".
handrail...does it mean,support?
and regarding ur concludin statement,well i guess ur bein too opiniated...
"and the world will live as one."
everybody wants that,even the terrorists,its the truth.wat do u think they are fightin for...they are fighting,injustice still exsists..all thnx to their notion and veterans' perspectives in regard to occidentalism...
i'm tryin to break the habit...but its hard...i'm tryin to clutch my cure...but....

3:13 AM  
Blogger TripleSix said...

(cont)
to strangers' inc
"memories consume,
like openin the wound,
i'm pickin me apart again.
u all assume,
i'm safe here in my room,
unless i try to start again.

clutchin my cure,
i tightly lock the door,
i try to catch my breath again.
i hurt much more,
than anytime before,
i had no options left again.

i dn't want to be the one,
the battles always choose.
cos inside i realize,
that i'm the one confused."

3:21 AM  
Blogger D'yer Mak'er said...

i'm still learnin the language...n' my vocabulary sucks...but still...my knowledge of the language makes me belive that sacramental means of, relating to, or used in a sacrament....n' i've been taught that sacrament means a rite believed to be a means of or visible form of grace, especially in the Eastern, Roman Catholic, and some other Western Christian churches, any of the traditional seven rites that were instituted by Jesus and recorded in the New Testament and that confer sanctifying grace....n' yeah...punishments maybe a part of it...but i wasn't underlyin that punishment part...for i was more concerned in the sanctification of the grace part.....for what i meant was low only signifies absence of high....just as high signifies absence of low....n' everythin is marked by a temporaryhood.....n' i'm not at all used to explainin...specially what i mean...all i can say that what i said was for a reason...maybe someday you'd know...

11:06 PM  
Blogger TripleSix said...

to stargers' inc
"n' i'm not at all used to explainin...specially what i mean...all i can say that what i said was for a reason...maybe someday you'd know... "
hey looks like who felt about what i wrote to u previously,i'm really sry,but that wasn't my intentions at all...anyhow,i still apologise..
my vocab is no gr8 either,infact the reason i write blog is to improve my writing skill...it'll be useful for my course,journalism,
well,in spite of doin jour i'm still interested in documentary films and photography..at present,i'm doin photography as an optional sub.
"sanctification of the grace"...hmmm...ru tryin to sympathise with me?(jus kiddin)
regardin the "high" and "low",u've talked about,well...it reminds me of the extract from shakespere's merchant of venice,
i know not why i am so sad,
it wearies me,u say it wearies u.
but how i caught it,or came by it...." sry,can't rem the rest..but i rem what anotonio says as a concluding statement in this scene of Act1...he's like,"i'm happy,bcos i'm not sad..and i get sad bcos i'm not happy"..i dn't rem the exact line.but it goes collateral to the expression which has been stated by u,
"for what i meant was low only signifies absence of high....just as high signifies absence of low....n' everythin is marked by a temporaryhood...."
i think i have bored u enough with my shit rambling...lol

12:19 PM  
Blogger D'yer Mak'er said...

do you know why bloggin is still on the survival mode...for the bloggers know how to honour n' respect a difference of opinion...n' they always welcome it....n' i guess this is exactly why we both of us are here...n' i apologize for my inability to express my thoughts in totality..which you've misunderstood as my denial of appreciation of what you wrote...n' regardin the sympathy thing you mentioned...well what can i say...

...And stranger than your sympathy
..all these thoughts you stole from me
And I’m not sure where do I belong
And no where’s home and I'm all wrong

11:46 PM  
Blogger TripleSix said...

hey..i like the piece u've written...who's the poet?

"And stranger than your sympathy
..all these thoughts you stole from me
And I’m not sure where do I belong
And no where’s home and I'm all wrong"
dn't apologise...u have the rights to comment,infact i shudn't have exaggerated and made such an issue...sry,i guess i got lil clueless and thus, spoke rash 2u..
i dn't want to make a room for misconception between us..as long as we honour and respect the difference of opinion,just the way u said and dats exaclty what i feel so too,instead of makin it more incompatable...
take care
cya

8:36 AM  
Blogger D'yer Mak'er said...

enough of these apologies..enough of these incompatibilities...let's break the ice...let's slip through..let's take the roller coaster!!

p.s. sympathy was by john rzeznik

9:13 AM  
Blogger TripleSix said...

rollercoaster....i'm havin fun!!!!

8:10 AM  

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